Almost There…

So remember when I posted about 8 weeks back about researching my history? Sure you do. Oh, you don’t? Well, here’s a link to Discovering my past. 

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My results are finally moving along. They say that there was more demand so it took a toll on getting the results processed. Okay, cool. As long as it’s being processed I’m good. I was getting really nervous and was thinking maybe I’d been had. I’m in the final stages and I cant wait to finally get my results and share them with you. As an African American that was born and raised in the States, along with the rest of my family, I feel like I’m not connected to a culture because I don’t know my culture. Thanks to , you know slavery, selling of families apart from each other and rape of said slaves by their owners. Once I get my results I can feel more connected with my history so that I can plot my future. I’ll be back to update with results once I get them. I’m so excited and nervous at the same time.

Knock Me Down To Lift You Up

I’m just putting this out there and leaving it alone. When it comes to women’s empowerment, I’m all for it. But yes there is a but, you don’t need to tear men down or make them feel lesser so that you and your sisters can feel better. When you do this you are no better than the chauvinism that you are fighting against. Fuck your couch.

Another thing, right quick. Stop saying that you are givers of life. It takes two. And while I understand that you carry/incubate that child for 9 months and give labor to him/her, it was a man that provided the seed that grew. Again, don’t discredit me to make you feel better about yourself. Agree or disagree, I really don’t care. These are my thoughts and that’s how I feel. I will support you and your movement for proper recognition, rights, pay and all of that. I draw the line at knocking me down to lift you up. That is all. Have a great day.

Dipset Dipset Dipset

I’ve been listening to a good amount of older hip hop recently. Like I just went through my Dipset discography. Yes, I think they are one of the dopest movements in hip hop, but that’s just my opinion, not really based on fact or anything just my bias towards Cam and Juelz Santana. I miss that old(er) music. I don’t want to seem like a mid to late 30’s guy that’s all like “I grew up on real hip hop and everything else is trash”. I mean I do like some of the new rap that’s out now. Not sure where I was going with this other than I would love a Dipset reunion.  That would be awesome but alas I feel that it will never happen. At least not with everyone, the whole gang will never be back together.

I don’t know what it was/is about them that I like so much. I mean they rap about Harlem a lot and I’m not from there. They rap about money, drugs and women. I don’t have money, don’t do drugs, and not much of a ladies man. I think maybe its just the beats and flow? I don’t know, I just find myself nodding my head and reciting rhymes like I’m in a pink fur chilling in a pink Range Rover with an american flag bandana.  ehh…  Anyway, the Diplomats aka Dipset aka Cam and nem boys are one of my favorite groups. You don’t like it? Ehhh.. Your opinion doesn’t matter. I likes what I likes.

Let’s Talk About It

New podcast coming soon… Just a little something where I chat it up with my friends and other people that inspire me to be the best that I can be. Stay tuned for more info as time goes by.  Links for iTunes, google play and such to come. Right now you can follow me on soundcloud.com at

The Unsung Hero of This Is Us

I have been, like many others, engulfed with the new NBC show This is us. I mean I really love this show and I’m invested for the long haul. This show brings out the eye sweats or some sort of emotional response from me every single week. Some of the story-lines kind of bore me or aren’t interesting enough for me to really get involved. Kevin is the epitome of white privilege, Kate has an interesting story but just not interesting enough for me to care. Can’t really relate to her “struggle”. Not that it’s not a real struggle just haven’t been there, done that. The parents flashbacks are cool but I’m not a fan of the mom or Miguel and definitely not their togetherness. Miguel is kind of creepy to me for some reason.

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The one that gets me every week though… The one that I’m truly and fully invested in is Randall and his family dynamic. The other stories I kind of skim over but when Randall & ‘nem come across my screen I’m all in. The only time I have gotten emotional has been relative to something that has happened with them. I feel like I can relate to his situation more than the others, just as I’m sure some can relate to the other stories more. Just for me as a black man, I relate to him. Not even so much as a black man but as a man I can see myself more in Randall than the others. No shade. 

Randall’s story also brings up other issues that could be addressed as well. Issues such abandonment and that need for closure, drug use early in your youth that takes its toll on your health later, anxiety issues and not seeking proper care. This man has been through it all! I feel like he’s experienced everything that goes on in the black community. Most likely on purpose seeing as his family is the only representative of the black people on the show.

I truly love the show and if they ever do a spin-off of Randall’s story, I’m here for it!